My friends ask me to hang out like every day. Expect me to come pick them up, waste gas to do nothing. Yeah, I like to hang out with them but you can’t just expect me to drop everything I had planned because you really don’t want to be at home. And then they make me feel bad about not wanting to hang out. Sorry but lately the only places I want to be are my room, tanning bed, and Codys room. If I’m not with him I perfer to be alone.
So tempted.. :(
I kind of really hate myself right now… I hate life.
I don’t just date “anyone”.
I learned how to date only the people you feel like you have the potential of getting married to. That relationship where even if you fight or have those huge arguments, in the end you’ll know that you’re both still each other’s. No matter what. If you can’t see a future in your significant other, then you’re not ready to be committed. If you learn how to do this, you will get hurt less. That’s a guarantee.
I can barely eat anymore. I can last a week eating that amount of food you should eat in a day. I try to eat and I feel like I’m going to explode from the smallest amount. And nothing ever sounds good anymore. I feel fine most of the time.. but its actually pretty annoying.
I really don’t want to start taking birth control.. but I also really don’t want to get pregnant. And I guess if I’m on birth control I can have sex all the time? I don’t know. I don’t really know about this stuff.
I wish I could just lay in bed with you all day long. I enjoy watching netflix and having sex every half hour. But all I can think about now is how bad its going to hurt if you fuck me over.
When people fuck you over..
….It means you need to change the status between you and those people.Therefor it means you need to stop giving fucks about them.
Oh my god… no you are not staying here the whole time my parents are gone. I already want to chop your head off and you’ve already ate half of my food. Holy shit. You must leave tomorrow morning.
I’m scared to like you as much as I do. I’ll end up pushing you away some how. I’m 18 and I’ve never been in a relationship. I don’t understand them and I have no clue how to be in one.
I tried running and working out, that didn’t help. Then I cut… for the first time since like May. I’m still just as frustrated and I still just want to cry. I hate myself. I’m stupid and fat and I just want to die.
It really sucks that I have no one I can talk to. The only thing I can do is write pathetic things on here, which doesn’t even help. If I wasn’t so afraid of what happens after death, suicide would be likely.
Shit I haven’t had this happen for so long. Im freaking out, crying, I want to cut so bad right now. Wow. I seriously couldn’t hate myself more right now.
Why can’t you just talk to me? Why can’t you put any effort it? You said you’d always be there to talk if I needed. Well guess what? I need someone to talk to. It seems as if I have to find someone else.
I feel so alone.